My father passed away last week. I posted in the Caregiver Depression forum because I had not seen this forum. I took care of him for years. I realize now that I was more consumed with caregiving than I thought I was. Now that it's over, I know intellectually that I am free to pursue my own life, but it is bittersweet.
Despite the occasional complaining about being a caregiver, the truth is that I felt needed and it made me feel good to be able to help another human being who depended upon me. That's a huge thing to do in life. So when it's over, it feels like I am less important. Does that make sense?
What job could be more important than helping and caring for another human being? Everything else I think of doing in the future pales in comparison.
I suppose the way to look at it is that caregiving was a part of my life, like a chapter in a book. Now it's time for a new chapter to begin. I am hoping to find meaningful things to do with my life from now on.
After focusing so long on another person, how do you shift focus back to yourself?