Feel like I'm having a breakdown!

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kandisdaughter
Feel like I'm having a breakdown!

I just really need to vent! I have been caring for my 78 year old mom since 2001, she has had two strokes and more than a dozen TIA's. In Dec. 2015 she fell backward while entering our front door and hit her head on the concrete she suffered a traumatic brain injury. The Dr said that she wouldn't wake up but 4 days later she woke up. She is a fighter and never gives up, she has been to rehab countless tires, I lose a little bit more of her each time. I am grateful for her recovery every time.

People tell me what a good daughter I am, how proud my mom is of me and how strong I am considering that I have a brother who "can't bare to see my mom not her regular self" and don't drive. I have had to quit my regular job and have become my moms in home service provider because she can't be left a!one and requires constant care. My mom has been to the ER three times since September with 2 TIA's and complications of COPD. 

I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown, I cry all the time have started eating constantly and have been feeling so angry, I don't know what to do. I started reading the posts on this site and it let's me know that I'm not really as alone as I feel and that my moms situation could be so much worse. I hate feeling comforted by other peoples misery and feelings of despair, but it feels like that's all I've got. I hope that others will read my post and find comfort in knowing that they are not alone and that others feel the same way they do. Reading and posting relieves some of the pressure I feel building up, I think that it will have to be enough for now. I feel better than I did a couple of minutes ago.

 

sarasmile
I know EXACTLY what you're

I know EXACTLY what you're going through.  My situation is a bit different...but my feelings of frustration and I feel like I'm losing my mind are just the same though.  I've been caring for my ex-husband for 6 years now...on a live in basis.  He has an advanced form of MS and is not able to do anything by himself and cannot be left alone.  He can barely function on a cognitive level either.  I do get some help from his mom and dad...but I just feel like walking away most days.  I have MS as well (but I don't have many symptoms) and I'm bipolar and am clinically depressed before all this happened.  But I know what you're going through.  Maybe by joining this group we will both benefit.  It helps to vent...especially to people who can relate.  My computer is always open if you would like to vent some more....