I sometimes wish my mom would just pass on. I hate to see this wonderful woman go though back pain and dementia and short term memory from her stroke. Some days I am alright, some I just feel like checking out myself. We live in my home (me 56, daughter 21, mom 86) which used to be mom's home when she was married to my father before the divorce. So she is comfortable here. But we are both students (college on line, me part time, daughter full time) and I work full time at a stressful job. I am also a cycling bi-polar (diagnosed in "88") no meds, lots of counseling in the past and lots of self psycho therpy, psych and sociology classes to handle me and my family unit.Do others feel that hoplelessness that death is better than having a loved one go through this insanity of aging?Sad thing is my mom wants to live forever, even with the pain and memory loss. I will never want to live like that. any input out there?
Tue, 04/16/2013 - 19:37#1