My father passed away last week. I posted in the Caregiver Depression forum because I had not seen this forum. I took care of him for years. I realize now that I was more consumed with caregiving than I thought I was. Now that it's over, I know intellectually that I am free to pursue my own life, but it is bittersweet. Despite the occasional complaining about being a caregiver, the truth is that I felt needed and it made me feel good to be able to help another human being who depended upon me. That's a huge thing to do in life. So when it's over, it feels like I am less important. Does that make sense? What job could be more important than helping and caring for another human being? Everything else I think of doing in the future pales in comparison. I suppose the way to look at it is that caregiving was a part of my life, like a chapter in a book. Now it's time for a new chapter to begin. I am hoping to find meaningful things to do with my life from now on. After focusing so long on another person, how do you shift focus back to yourself?
Sorry for your loss.
You are not used to be alone and you have a new life that you need time for yourself. You go out with your friends get along with them and it's time for you to be in a relationship to get inspired or if you are in a relationship go settle down. If it's not a choice, explore your world to find happiness.