I am a 20 something who has been taking care of my morbidly obese mother for the past 8 years. She has always been able to take care of herself, we used to fight alot and I would leave her to her own devices, I let her eat what she wanted and I stopped nagging her to walk which she never did anyways. She now has diebetes and is almost immobile 20 hrs a day. She is so ungrateful and picks at everything I do and how I am doing it. Nothing is ever good enough for her. She lives in denial and she lies about her ailments so we waste alot of time and my energy on meaningless things.
I feel like alot of her problems are in her head, I know she is depressed but she will not admit it or get help for it. I know that she is in a good amount of pain everyday hence the reason why she is so miserable to be around. She doesnt want to do anything productive or help me help her. Instead when things get really bad only than am I notified of the problem and it is up to me to figure it out. She doesnt understand I am not a doctor and there are only so many things I can do without proper tools. The other day she asked me to show her sympathy, I think that is sick and easy for her to say. If I gave into everything that she wanted i would no longer be myself, my own person with feelings/thoughts that are not attatched to her and I refuse to do that. I already wake up with my first thoughts on my "to-do" list.
I struggle everyday with feeling overwhelmed, the work is never ending. I know this is going to get worse and more things will be piled onto me. I feel alone in this.
I almost dont want anyone to know the disfunction that goes on in my house, the reason things are the way they are is difficult to explain when the person you are caring for is erratic and wants to be catered to.